Long Time, No See

Wow, over three years since my last post.  I think the blog title still fits.  There is so much going on in my head, I thought it might be helpful to get it out on *paper*.

I think my career is the biggest obstacle in my life right now.  When I was in DC, all I knew is that I would eventually move back to NYC. I LOVED my job, but I felt like I was not living where I was "supposed to be".  I was wrong. And because of that, I completely sabotaged my job.  Which seems to be a running theme with great things in my life.

You would think after XX number of years on this earth, and countless readings of the cliche, that I would KNOW that the grass is RARELY greener on the other side.  That held true in this instance.

I moved back to NYC and took a filler job while I searched for my perfect path.  I turned down 3 positions that might have fit well to take something I thought would be my future.  I quickly realized I was spiraling down into, well, depths that I did NOT want to be swimming in.  Every day is now a struggle.  Sundays are filled with anxiety and feelings of dread.  You know, that pit deep in your stomach where you aren't sure if you want to eat or throw up?

So now I'm at a crossroads.  There are options, but because my self-confidence is just this side of shot, my risk tolerance is low.  I have gained so many skills in my line of work over the years, that it has been a huge challenge to figure out a specific path to take.  IT? Real estate? Coaching? That last one... I've been thinking about it for about 7 years now.  It seems right that I should look into it more.

I just finished taking the Gallup StrengthsFinder 2.0 assessment and read the book.  It's been incredibly helpful, but now I want to delve deeper.

I think I'm going to close out for now, but I'm going to be taking up writing more, there's so much I want to get out of my head and onto the screen.